It's All About The Real De

As I explained in a previous post, my exboyfriend has commissioned his friends to read my blog to get to know me.

That just won't do. If you want to know me, reading my blog isn't going to help you very much.
So, for Minnesota's viewing pleasure, I'm compiling a list of things you need to know....All About De:

I've got a pretty good sense of humor. I tend to use humor to 1) defuse volatile situations 2) cover up my own insecurities 3) cover up my passive aggressive nature 4) make my friends and family laugh 5) make myself laugh

Underneath it all, I'm a happy person (on and off medication).

I've got a maternal spirit and I love caring for pets and people I love.

I am a HORRIBLE housekeeper. I couldn't keep a room clean if my life depended on it.

I have a hard time letting people in and even if you're in, you don't always get the whole story.

I love beautiful, expensive things. I can be just as happy without them.
I love nice clothes and pretty shoes and cute purses but if I had to spend the rest of my life shopping for clothing at Walmart, I could find other things to be happy about. There is always something to be happy about.

I don't have patience for people who refuse to think before they speak. If I can do it, anyone can. It's not that hard.

I am happiest when my bra and panties match and preferably, when they match what I'm wearing too.

I can be petty and shallow but I can also be magnanimous and deep. I am a contradiction.
For example: I don't like getting my hands dirty but if I have to, I'll dig in the dirt or umm...do other things that make hands dirty.
I like to stay clean and girly but I LOVE batting cages and playing catch, I'll get in a boat and fish in the summer heat and sweat my ass off.
I like victorian decor and pastel colors but at the same time, I love art deco, modern art and primary colors.
I love heavy metal and hard rock but also opera and classical music.

I always have this feeling that I'm being watched but I've finally attributed it to being from the television generation. Maybe because of all the TV I have watched in my youth, I feel like *I* am on TV too! Now with the explosion of reality TV, I'm REALLY paranoid!

I will be the most loyal friend you have ever had. When you're my friend and I've let you in, you could murder someone and I will say "That fucker deserved it!".
I will also not call you for weeks until you call me and I will be SO happy to hear from you.

I feel the need to constantly learn and grow in every way possible.

I am extremely insecure and need a LOT of reassurance.

I am lazy. SOOOOOOOOO lazy. You don't know lazy til you know me.

I can't open up to someone who won't open up to me.

I have passive aggressive tendencies.

I hate my big feet. HATE HATE HATE

When I love someone, I love with every fiber of my being, with every inch of my soul and I can sometimes lose myself in that person if they aren't careful.

My favorite color is pink. All shades.

When I'm depressed, I watch a horrible movie called Showgirls (yes, I own it on DVD). I've watched it a lot lately.

I rarely forget a kindness and have a hard time forgetting a slight.

I can count on one hand how many times I've been "furious" and only once was it directed at Marshall. And he knows why.

I have daydreams of going back in time to visit different time periods like the mid to late 1800s, the 1930s and 40s Hollywood, etc.

I had a very tumultuous childhood but others have had worse and I don't use it as an excuse for anything.

I'm the youngest (by a pretty large margin) of 5 girls yet I feel like an only child.

I've never experienced pain like I did when my beautiful nephew died. Now, nine months later, I still can't believe he's gone.
After his death, all this trivial shit of life just didn't seem important.
The problem is that it's all starting to trickle back, the unimportant shit.
And suddenly now, I realize, that it's NOT important. All the games that the exboyfriend has been wanting to play, all the time I've spent being upset.... it's all stupid and it's all a waste.
Life is precarious. Life could end at ANY given moment for any of us and though some of us have faith and some of us have strong beliefs, we don't know for sure what lies ahead over on the other side.
So why waste our time with petty bullshit? Quit obssessing over someone else's life and just freaking LIVE.

Posted by De at November 15, 2005 03:07 PM | TrackBack