Ommmmm

I went to my first meditation practice last night at the Buddhist Center.
It wasn't what I expected at all and that's a good thing.

It was in someone's old house set on cinder blocks. The front room was set up specifically for group meditation and lectures.
The only thing was, the homeowner and meditation leader was not there. The lady who led it last night was incredibly warm and friendly but fumbled her way through. I was glad because it made me feel more relaxed.

There were only 6 of us there; a college student, the meditation leader, a mom and her son, my friend and me.

I felt a connection there but it wasn't as if it were some meaningful spiritual experience. I was so ultra aware of what was going on around me that I couldn't "find my center". When we should have been in deep meditation, I kept focusing on the sounds of some idiot outside revving his engine repeatedly and the sound of someone in the back of the house washing dishes. Then my foot was uncomfortable, curled up on this pillow, my back hurt and I was sitting in a weird position but I didn't want to fidget around trying to get comfortable when everyone else seemed perfectly relaxed.
So, I sat there trying not to notice the shooting pains in my back and the fact that my ass was falling asleep.

I think I need to do some mediation accessory shopping.

I wonder if Gucci makes meditation pillows?

Posted by De at October 20, 2004 09:50 AM